Over the course of the last 24 hours something has become increasingly clear to me: Jesus wants every piece of me. Every single piece. You see, I’ve told Him several times that I surrender my life to Him. That He can have everything. That I am His vessel for Him to use. Yet I don’t […]
I walked away from homosexuality.At the age of four, I accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior. From this time until roughly the age of ten, I was in love with Jesus. I loved reading the Bible, spending time with Christ, and listening to the sermons at church. My spirit burned for Him, and I tried to honor Him with all my actions. But Satan had already begun planting seeds in my life — fears, insecurities, shames, and others. In the first grade, I started to notice that I was “different.” My parents put me on a basketball team, and I hated it. At school, I went to recess, and most of the time I ended up playing with the girls because I did not want to play football with the boys. I hated having to “perform” while everyone was watching. The pressure of it all completely stressed me out. Further, I had no interest in sports. Satan began to really turn this against me. This specific thing — that I had no interest in sports — caused me to think that I was different from the other guys. Also, it produced a ton of shame. What was wrong with me? I started developing a fear of boys my age and men in general. I could not talk to them. I felt I could not measure up. I was afraid of rejection. Worst of all, I had a hard time relating to my father too. On the other hand, I had no problem interacting with girls and talking to them...
You know how I took my mask off to share my story and be real with people? You know how I encourage people to do this all the time? Well, I’ve felt myself stapling that mask back onto my face since I got to school. And it’s killing me. Today I’m ripping the staples out. […]
The first day on the ground in Romania, I was writhing in emotional pain. I had been made to feel that my story was too sinful to share. I had no idea why I was there except for the fact that God had told me to go. After reaching out for prayer, the song below […]